My Real Expression

I talk to many many people throughout the time that i dont spend by my self and for some reason everyone has this ability to really express themselves and for some reason i really struggle????

whether it be through writing, talking, drawing or music people seem to find the time to do these things....................... and i dont.

but when i find the time (the itsy bitsiest bit of time i use music). I used arrange very classical style music, but now in my lack of time i only really have the time to listen to the more popular variety of music

So

This is how im feeling in the very special words of david grohl "come alive" (my slightly edited version)

Seems like only yesterday
Life belong to runaways
Nothing here to see, no looking back

Every sound monotone
Every color monocrome
Life begin to fade into the black

Such a simple animal
Steralized with alcohol
I could hardly feel me anymore

Desperate, meaningless
All filled up with emptiness
Felt like everything was said and done

I lay there in the dark, I close my eyes
You saved me the day you came alive

Still I try to find my way
Spending hours, endin' days
Burning like a flame behind my eyes

Drown in out, drink it in
Crown the king of suffering
Prisoner, slave to the disguise

Disappeared the only thing
Bittersweet surrendering
Knew that it was time to say goodbye

I lay there in the dark and I close my eyes
You saved me the day that you came alive
The reason you left me to survive
You saved me the day you came alive

I lay there in the dark and I close my eyes
You saved me the day that you came alive

Nothing more to give
I can finally, come alive
Your life into me
I can finally breathe

I lay there in the dark
Open my eyes
You saved me the day that you came alive

maybe you understand, maybe you dont

have fun, stay safe