EXAMS!!!

Exams!!!!!!

i will be back soon, maybe???

CTU (Crazy Times Update)

hey,

i finished an assignment today, found out that a grant of $30000 that i applied for may pass through, i learned the intro to stairway to heaven, i finished learning come alive (foo fighters) and faith George micheal, still no closer to working out stranger things have happened (foo fighters), i almost completely learned how to do a side sault, i watched like a million youtube videos, i answered like 2 million emails, i sat on three councils **yawn** (i decided that a student would not recieve a grade review(to those who think that's harsh you didnt read three assignments and have to compare them to criteria before hand)) though i got free food out of them (always a plus).

i cant think of anything else.......

so thats the almost clean cut update, see you in the morning


P.S
i haven't shaven in a while so for those who care i will truly be former fur face tomorrow.................. arrrgg the never ending cycle

Foo Fighters - Walking After you

Foo Fighters - Walking After you

Tonight Im tangled in my blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud
Things just wont do without you, matter of fact
Im on your back, Im on your back, Im on your back

If you walk out on me, Im walking after you
If you walk out on me, Im walking after you
If youd accept surrender, Ill give up some more
Werent you adored

I cannot be without you, matter of fact
Im on your back, Im on your back, Im on your back
If you walk out on me, Im walking after you
If you walk out on me, Im walking after you

Another heart is cracked in two, Im on your back
I cannot be without you, matter of fact
If you walk out on me, Im walking after you
Another heart is cracked in two, Im on your back

Still Pissed

whoah......



thats a one word description of my night out

funny thing is, i'm still pissed.

chapter 1 - the begining

it all started with my friend, he turned 20 the other day, so you know we had to celebrate somehow. so i was at work and in he comes and we have a chat because it was really dead, the whole strip was dead. even cold rock was dead. maybe it was too cold..... anyway so he came in and he got something to eat, and i decided i would give him the meal for free, cause it was his birthday.

But

the duty manager saw >.< , not cool. i not worried though cause i was gona cover it but i got pulled up on it. i couldn't have looked like a bigger dickhead. chapter 2 - the club so after work (which, by the way, was really slow and boring) i went to meet the in the valley. so i got in the club and the majority of the birthday party crowd had gone, which was ok, cause trying to control a large group of polaks is impossible. so i figured i might aswell have a drink with the birthday boy so i had one drink with him then i bought a drink for me and another mate then one of them bought one for me and so on...... chapter 3 - the drunk that would be me, and my friends and their friends, and these random chicks we met at the bar. So that was me, drink after drink, dance after dance...... and then SHOTS........ >.<


smart move

chapter 4 - The dance

me and the mates out on the dance floor carving it up and as per usual attracting the crowd (hahaha just jokes, the crowd was already there but dont underestimate our crowd pulling capacity). then all of a sudden out of nowhere the chicks from the bar are on the dance floor and then like we do every time we ask them to dance (cause whats life without a dance). now when we ask you to dance on the dance floor you never refuse, we are not aggressive or rude or anything like that, its just that when we hit the dance floor we are the loudest, funniest, most animated people and when we say dance you dance.

chapter 5 - The fuzz

(insert fuzzy part here) (would suspect some dancing and drinking occurred)

chapter 6 - The drinks

now at this point in time i am thoroughly smashed, but the chick from the bar is with me at the bar and she is giving me shots (she could have been buttering me up, hahaha, i hope not that's actually a bit scary :S ) so this chick giving me free drinks, i was like

"whoah awesome lets do that"

so we did

now we skip ahead

chapter 7
chapter 8
chapter 9

chapter 10 - the smoking area

so obviously as the title suggests we were in the smoking area. old mates and new, and my friend (you remeber the 20 year old one from the begining of the story) has hooked up with one of the chicks from the bar,

"hahahaha" i laughed aloud

anyway we met this croat who starts craking on to the other one and i was hungry (really hungry) but it was 3:40 : ( . see now thats not cool, i have to choose between staying or eating, its a bit like torture really. i chose food considering that it was like a makeout session and i was the audience which i dont mind cause in those situations i just switch off

hang on ......

chapter 10.5

i met this fella, pegleg, i cant remeber his real name but then again why would i give you his real name?? so this guy i met (during the forementioned "makeout session") had a steel knee and had lost his finger all before he was 10. now thats fucked up but he was sort of cool about it.

chapter 10 - cont.

so i decided i was hungry enough to leave, so i started to walk to maccas. as soon as i got out of the club i needed to pee....... great.......this from the guy who just moments before saw a random outside get shoo'ed away by security for peeing on the wall. so i walked and i walked and i walked a little more till i got to the public toilets and i pissed like a race horse

while im on the topic did you know that its not uncommon for a race horse to loses kilos in a race i cant remeber how much but kilos its crazy but true

anyway so i pissed and then when to maccas which i passed on the way to the toilets but i was hungry and so i walked back and got 2 quarter pounders and a large fries now that i was complete i started to walk back home

Chapter 11 - going home

so now i was walking along the side of the road and i had just finished my first burger and i found a bike, so i rode this bike down the road....... further down that road i ran out of food and was still hungry so i stopped at hungrys and grabed 2 whoppers and a large fries. So with new food i made my way to my car, luckily by the time i got there i had finished my food. so then i chucked the bike in the back and walked to my house.

i went to sleep

but this is not the end

this is just a grain of sand on the beach that is my life (hahahaha that is the stupidest thing ive ever come up with)

Confusion

arrrrgh!!!!!.......

im in bed at the moment and i don't want to get out.

see this is how i feel, my edited version of "the wrong girl" missy higgins

So the floodgates open but nothing comes out
I'm feeling no relief in my head, just doubt
But my heart keeps telling me 'hold your ground
You'll never learn a thing if you bail out now'

And I'm lonely again tonight
I can feel it like a knot in my side
They keep saying this is part of the ride
But I'm not getting stronger

Yet hold me against the light
And do you see any bullet inside?
Wouldn't find one if you magnified
Because you've got the wrong guy

Had my fingers around the back of your chair
You'd never miss a thing but you missed me there
And I just kept thinking 'Am I prepared
To pull it out from under your trusting stare?'

Now the house is quiet as a hollow head
And I'm walking round bumping into things you said
This has not been as easy as I thought it would
I'd be cooling down the fire if I thought I could

But I'm lonely again tonight
I can feel it like a knot in my side
They keep saying this is part of the ride
But I'm not getting stronger

Yet hold me against the light
And do you see any bullet inside?
Wouldn't find one if you magnified
Because you've got the wrong guy


But at the same time like this, "magic" colbie caillat

You've got magic inside your finger tips
Its leaking out all over my skin
Everytime that i get close to you
Your makin me weak with the way you
Look through those eyes

And all i see is your face
All i need is your touch
Wake me up with your lips
Come at me from up above
Yeaaaa, oh i need you

I remember the way that you move
Your dancin easily through my dreams
Its hittin me harder and harder with all your smiles
You are crazy gentle in the way you kiss

All i see is your face
All i need is your touch
Wake me up with your lips
Come at me from up above

Oh baby i need you
To see me, the way i see you
Lovely, wide awake in
The middle of my dreams

And all i see is your face
All i need is your touch
Wake me up with your lips
Come at me from up above

All i see is your face
All i need is your touch
Wake me up with your lips
Come at me from up above
Yeaaaa, oh oh da da da do do do do doAhhhhhh,
i ..... i need you




why!!!!!!!! why do i feel this??? i guess its cause i dont have anyone to talk to like i used to, it finally hit home a little while ago that i am actually alone. i mean i have friends and they're awesome but its not the same. i though i was fine but obviously im not......

im going back to moleep (thats mope and sleep smooshed together)

ill be back

Sore

Guess what.....

Today i turned into jelly, it was funny but painfulishly stupid. Trying to serve people with jiggly arms and not being able to bend down cause aching muscles was interesting but now im home and ready to go to bed.

So that was my short little post

we'll see about tomorrow

A Good Nights Sleep

Gym was awesome last night, i spent a lot of time getting my dashes in order. I thought i had them down pat but we'll see when i take those new found abilities outside. I began learning backflips, it was fun. I worked on my front flips aswell. I had a go at the rings and the pummel horse and didn't do to badly but then again didn't do so well either.

The S&C session before hand was a killer, i felt like i was dying but hopefully the more i do the better i get, so i will keep doing it.

After this i came home ate and slept. I went to sleep at about 11pm and woke up at 9:30am and it was awesome :)

right breakfast time

My Real Expression

I talk to many many people throughout the time that i dont spend by my self and for some reason everyone has this ability to really express themselves and for some reason i really struggle????

whether it be through writing, talking, drawing or music people seem to find the time to do these things....................... and i dont.

but when i find the time (the itsy bitsiest bit of time i use music). I used arrange very classical style music, but now in my lack of time i only really have the time to listen to the more popular variety of music

So

This is how im feeling in the very special words of david grohl "come alive" (my slightly edited version)

Seems like only yesterday
Life belong to runaways
Nothing here to see, no looking back

Every sound monotone
Every color monocrome
Life begin to fade into the black

Such a simple animal
Steralized with alcohol
I could hardly feel me anymore

Desperate, meaningless
All filled up with emptiness
Felt like everything was said and done

I lay there in the dark, I close my eyes
You saved me the day you came alive

Still I try to find my way
Spending hours, endin' days
Burning like a flame behind my eyes

Drown in out, drink it in
Crown the king of suffering
Prisoner, slave to the disguise

Disappeared the only thing
Bittersweet surrendering
Knew that it was time to say goodbye

I lay there in the dark and I close my eyes
You saved me the day that you came alive
The reason you left me to survive
You saved me the day you came alive

I lay there in the dark and I close my eyes
You saved me the day that you came alive

Nothing more to give
I can finally, come alive
Your life into me
I can finally breathe

I lay there in the dark
Open my eyes
You saved me the day that you came alive

maybe you understand, maybe you dont

have fun, stay safe

The People I Yelled At Today

Today was fun, i got to yell at people. This was because it was Apropriate Technology Day for EWB. I was yelling because we were in the corner where no one could see us very well. it was fun and boring at the same time but for the majority of the time some people from amnesty international and a guy from another organisation were handing out flyers and trying to get money so when i went to talkto them they ran away even though i wasnt selling anything, i just wanted their help building a giant lego wind turbine.

At one point i decided to combat these representatives by grabing anything i could find, this happened to be some pieces of cardboard that i ripped up from a carton of coke, and started to hand them out to people. I've done this before and usually people laugh and start talking but everybody just took one and kept walking, they didn't even look twice.

Very strange!!!!

That is all for now
may add more as i think of it

oodles

How Much Longer Could This Day Possibly Get???

????

Today was a day that could not possibly get any fuller.

I started my day getting up at 6:30 after going to sleep at 2:00, this might have been because it was hot or maybe i wasn't trying to sleep on the right side or maybe it was the fact that i cant get someone out of my head, it's driving me up the wall. Anyway thats a story for another time. From there i had a shower and got dressed in time to catch the bus into traffic so bad that a drive that may usually take 20min takes 40 min to an hour, which is one step better than the hour and a half that it would take me to walk there.

Anyway when i get to uni i have to sit this 2hr lecture on the dynamics of machinery which is interesting but it is way too early in the morning to derive equations from random linkages. Today, from what i remember, was a discusion about the the kinetics (the study of the effects of forces on motion) of four bar linkages. For all those non mechanical engineers or those not in the know, this leads to some very laborious and boring maths.

Then because of pracs this week there was no tutorials for design and maintanance of machinery, so i went and did an assignment about why sausages split lengthwise when cooked, instead of in any other direction. From there i tried to find some small dvds to put a documentary, that was made for my project by the school of film and tv, on. then it was time to go to my next lecture....

My lecture to my surprise was not a lecture but a game where we acted out a manufacturing plant of some sort and we failed misserably. As was the point of the excersice.

Very amusing :)

but then a tutorial on dynamics of machinery *snoar* basically the same as the lecture, but none the less important to be at cause you never know what your going to pick up that you missed before.

Then, once again off in search of the elusive mini dvds, and as hard as i tried i found nothing :( , though where we fail we must try and try again or else it will never happen.

so after all this i managed to miss my bus, it is so boring to sit at a bus stop for half an hour......


i finaly reached home Yay :)

But wait there's more......

When i arrived home i had a bit of time to sort out my emails and found i have three appointments to attend this week, one is looking after the Appropriate Technologies Day EWB Wednesday is holding, Another is meeting one of the founders of My project on Wednesday and the last i recieved today i have been asked to join a panel to review the grade of a student also for Wednesday. I also recieved an email from a potential sponsor of the project so is looking good.

and now am watching chocolat...

the end of my day hopefully

goodnight all

The Begining

This afternoon i found a jam going on down at UQ and joined in, i didnt expect much but my foot did extremely well im considering going to gym this week, i got in a couple of dashes (not quite there but closer). also managed a couple of drops with rolls (no head touching the floor). alot of prescisions, and that was about 2.5 hrs. The only bad thing was that security was being annoying, the guy kept coming past us and stoping and watching us but never got out his van, maybe he is a fan, but its hard to tell cause if security comes it usually means that we are in the wrong place.

hopefully i will get back into the full swing of things and then i will get some pics and video to put up for all to see.

good luck and may the parkour gods smile apon you

cleaning and breakfast

Im tired....

There are a few things in my room i need to pick up before my parents come back so i decided to do it today seeing as im going to uni tomorrow.

Then....
Breakfast!!!!!!

I dont know what ill do, i want to go out for breakfast but i dont know where to go. The least i could do is go and get some eggs from the shop, and some bread.

Todays parkour training has been cancelled :( , i'll have to go and do some by my self instead maybe if i can be bothered. Atleast there was a plan and if it wasnt cancelled i would have been there.

Thats it, im off

cya

Zorro, Work and Parkour

My poor dog zorro, waited for me by the front door last night. i got home at 12:40am last night and there he was sitting waiting, he was so exited when i walked up the stairs he started jumping and sniffing and all of those things that dogs do. i thought it was cold outside so i let him in with me and the first thing that he did was jump on the couch and he just sat there. He was happy there so i went and made Dinner. he is a food dog, so he came straight away and sat beside me didn't make a sound but he was eyeing off the food. its funny to watch cause he is so concentrated and focused. he was a good boy so i gave him some and he enjoyed it : ).

work wasn't as bad as i thought it would be last night, i did fine. we had a new girl come in so i was laughing the whole time, mostly at the fact that i remember asking the same things. although the till screwed up just before we wanted to close hence my late return from work, anyway the till i have no idea what was wrong with it but it just didnt want to work so we had to do the rest of the payments by hand, so i got away as quick as i could. i watched as the guy i work with had to do all these peoples orders that wanted to pay seprately by hand, but in the mean time i was outside limping around stacking tables and chairs, not because of the incident the other week but because my foot was cramping up.

this is my beautiful boy, Zorro



yay for me i dont have to work on sunday, this means i can go to the Parkour S & C session, for the first time in two and a half weeks i will be doing someting remotely parkour, it has been boring as hell with the foot thing i haven't been able to do anything but sunday is the plan and then back into the full swing of things.

for those of you who have no idea of parkour click here (it goes to youtube)

i have a youtube account, "huffer123", thats me. i dont know if i can do the whole vlog thing my ramblings tend to be quite random and i dont know whether people will be able to follow what im saying but soon i may be able to put together a parkour vid for everyone to see which would be good. it wont be as dramatic as the pro parkour vids but it will do

anyway im off atleast for the next couple of hours i may write something before work maybe not
dunno


TTFN

Cadbury Crunchie

Mmmmm, cadbury crunchies. It's not very healthy but it makes for a tasty lunch :) , although for lunch i don't just have one i have acouple. i have to go to work today :( , i haven't been there for about 2 weeks now because of the inccident with my foot, and i don't really want to go. But i'll make myself go cause it's money and they are all my friends. I do this all the time and its really bad. i will be really active in something and then something will happen like the foot thing or i will get sick and then i just loose interest in those things completely.

last time i did it, i did karate for about a year and a half and then one week i got sick and then never went back. Which is a shame because i was actually really good at it. So hence the reason i push myself to go back and keep going.

At the moment im saving for a laptop, and that will good because then i can take my work with me where ever but because ive been missing out on work so much lately for thing like EWB National council down near tweed, the adelaide trip and then my foot, money isnt really coming in that quickly...

on a happier note my project has developed quite a bit attention and people are coming out of the wood work to help me out financially, hopefuly we can get the first stage completed by the end of the year..... so go me,

right im off to finish my crunchie

good day

Sore Feet

today i went to a networking event for my project (the website i created for it is somewhere in my details) and i talked for hours to heaps of people. i managed to pull together some buisness cards to hand out and some how managed to burn a whole bunch of dvds (that are a short documentary of the project) in my spare hour and a half today. *sigh*

at least now i know what to do in advance.......hahahaha

its seems like everything i do late seems to take the edison approach, you know, finding a million way how not to do something. but i think its good allways learning, cause what is life without learning......... my answer is nothing

Empty House

i live with my parents in a house close to uni.... obviously im not going to move out (just yet), because i live so close, moving out would be rather pointless. Having said that they decided to tell me yesterday that they were going up the coast for the week and that i have to look after the house.

So im here by myself in a large house....

It seems like a waste to me, just the fact that i am one person in such a large space i can only use one room at a time and the rest of the house is doing nothing. I could have something running in each of the rooms but i still couldn't enjoy all of those things i can only be in one place at one time and therefore, only enjoying one thing at a time while the rest of the rooms running things for no reason. Which i think is quite wasteful, not good :( .

This makes me think why does every body need so much space. I think its wierd that i can walk around my suburb and not see a single person just streets houses the occaisional car (unless you go to the main road). Imagine if we gathered together in to small communities like villages where everybody slept and ate together and then did whatever elsewhere....... i guess it would be a super structure like an apartment block. There are roughly 50 houses on my block and about 80 block in my suburb so im thinking it would be less than 500 apartments.

now can you imagine the space that would be available for things like trees, solar panels, live stock, gardens, whatever. Also all those people in such a confined space i guess would build more of a community feel, something along the lines of a small town. But....

I can see this being a bit stressful on a lot of people, i know people dont like to be watched or to be in the spotlight nor do they like confined spaces or noise. So why do we all try to isolate our selves from one another????

Maybe its fear of being judged or what is left over from our need to define who we are as an independant person. Its interesting that now we have the "infrastructure" to do more or less what ever we want we push to be individual, to do our own thing. It wasn't that long ago that everything we did was for the family or the community because it benifited us and those close to us in a positive way. (i will get into why communism doesnt work in another post)

and now...........

Globailsation
Consumerism and i guess at our core in some way
Republicans (our need to separate from our family to be more individual)

Because why would we do something for other people??
The World Revolves Around You (obviously)

for those of you who regularly donate to charities (e.g oxfam, unicef, redcross, the wilderness society) how much of that actually goes to the cause you donate?? really...... when that money leaves your hand you feel good because you think that you have done your part and contributed to a good cause and most of all it comes back to the forementioned point of "The World (obviously) Revolves Around You", but have you really thought about where it is going when you donate to these organisations you generaly donate to the whole..... Yes thats right to the whole.... which means that the money you give might not actually go where you want it to.

For example if an organisation has a large project and a few smaller projects and you decide to donate to on of the smaller projects because the cause is close to your heart the organisation may decide that the money is put to better use in the large project. Also these organisations have quite a few paid staff aswell not to mention the cost inccured with running projects like and organisations like those.

finally why are we so afraid to interact with other people? i mean we push for independence but endup only being comfortable with a select few

Spasm

i went out today for the first time, walking around and stuff. My legs are a bit sore but i guess that's to be expected since i haven't used them in a while. Now im sitting here typing to all of you who maybe reading about it. While i am doing this my thigh is spasming, it feels wierd. its like someone is tickling the inside of my leg or poping bubble wrap inside my leg, when i took the computer off my lap i could see it jiggling around.

it's funny, it sort of looks like something out of alien the movie where the alien comes out of the guy. hmmmmm....... yes...... there is something in my leg, and at any second its going to explode out of my leg like a worm with fangs.

and now it has stopped, hahahaha. well i guess its not ready to come out yet, im going to say it was like a baby in the womb kicking around and stuff, exept its in my leg :S

anyway in other news i actually started doing some work towards uni yesterday starting all my various assignments and things, i like these assignments and i can see why i chose the degree i did. Although i often wonder why people choose to do other things why arent they interested in what i am interested in???

individualism is very strange for me and i like a lot of things, i just dont understand what drives people to do something like PR or HR for example, whats is the joy or the fascination with a job like this. Maybe it comes down to the fact that these people dont know what they like, or maybe they are lazy or maybe they are power hungry they like the control (obviously im talking about the higher ups and not the minions) but what do you gain from doing something like this???

im not sure....

Boredom....

This is wierd, i have a swollen foot cause i twisted it the other day. Of all the ways i could have done this, i did it walking down some stairs.

but me being me i didnt think anything of it at the time so i just kept going. i dont think that was such a great idea...... So now im limping around. I like to think it's a stylish looking limp cause then i dont feel so bad about slowing people down. Atleast if it was stylish then they would have something to look at while they are waiting to get past.

i cant remember the last time i ever did anything like this to myself, not cool, but now i cant really go anywhere or do anything......Hence the boredom, i dont know what to do