Depression!!!

google defines it as

• a mental state characterized by a pessimistic sense of inadequacy and a despondent lack of activity
• sad feelings of gloom and inadequacy
  
• depressive disorder: a state of depression and anhedonia (an inability to experience pleasure) so severe as to require clinical intervention

Now if you have read into my blog, you may have come across this, now something i didn't mention was that before i met her she was traumatised by some pretty nasty things and was forced to grow up a little quicker than most. anyway this led to a deep depression, which i subsequently was subjected to. Now after all this time i am started to think that my exposure to her condition, though it taught me a lot about people, may have infact caused a depression in me.

symptoms as defined by reach out

Mood

• Feeling sad, moody or crap
• Feeling hopeless or helpless 
• Feeling numb or empty
• Feeling anxious 
• Feeling guilty and blaming yourself
• Unable to feel good or enjoy things that you do normally

Thinking

• Being overly self-critical
• Believing you can't cope and that things are out of your control
• Difficulty making decisions and thinking clearly
• Poor concentrating and memory
• Thinking about suicide or ending your life

Behaviour

• Lack of motivation and energy
• Crying a lot
• Losing interest in activities you usually enjoy 
• Withdrawing from your friends and family or being overly dependent on them
• Increased use of alcohol or other drugs
• Losing your temper more than usual

Physical  

• Loss of appetite or over-eating
• Changes in sleep patterns - difficulty getting to sleep, waking up in the middle of the night or sleeping for longer
• Headaches or stomach aches 
• Feeling physically sick
• Lack of interest in sex

im not going to tell which ones they are, So thats them. Now another organisation had a test on their website, i ranked at medium risk and was only a couple of points away from high risk, which really suprised me, cause i didn't think it was that bad, i mean i feel normal, yeah people think im a little weird but i've been like that for as long as i can remember.

now i know that, if i were to go and check this out and it was to be true, then i would have to go through therapy and i honestly can't be bothered, i sat through years of that crap and it wasn't even for me. 

I also don't want antidepressants are for me either i have seen how they change people. its crazy

now to make things worse all of my friends have dissapeared for the holiday period so i really don't have anyone to talk to anymore, and i think that it is loneliness that gets me the most, it's really when im at my worst.

but what am i to do???

if this keeps up, the future doesn't look so good for me

CLAUSTROPHOBIA?

I found today that i don't like crowded movie theaters, i don't feel right, it made me really unconfortable

I'm used to spreading out a bit, and im used to going to see movies alone, but none of that today!!

NO!! NO!!

There were people  eating, moving, talking, making bodily sounds, all right next to me. it was horrible :(

Mind you the movie i went to see "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" was a really nice movie and i would recommed everone go see it, though if you have read the book, don't bother. Every time someone reads the book before the movie it completely ruins it, and then they give a good movie a bad review just because it didn't coincide with what they had imagined.

I started training today and it was a good first step, soon i will be back to gym and then i will finally get my flips in order, then i will be unstoppable.

the list is as follows

60 x chinups

50 x situps

5 x holding dish for 1min

10 x 1 min handstands

5 x attempted handstand pushup

1 x 1.(something) hr run/jog - walk

do you think thats enough??

Christmas

Ahh the beloved holiday

The joy

The happyness 

The randomness

And most of all the food :D

Christmas is a time where bits and peices of my family gather together as many people as possible together to have a good time, unfortunately we are scattered across the country, and because of a recent devorce we are even more all over the place.

One thing i don't like about Christmas apart from its origin and its over baring presence in society are the presents.

I dispise presents, i have no idea why, but i do....

anyway i didn't realise it was coming up so quickly and now its already here

i don't know where to hide...

One quick quesion

for guys and girls

what day were you born on??



please leave comments, i would really like to know

Stress aversion

So i was having a bitch and a teary at you guys the last post but now i have good news,

The partners have decided to push the project back to the middle of the year which means i now have more time to do everything and i am garunteed a trip to PNG

ahh the AWESOMENESS of it all is astounding

which means i now have more time to do talk to you guys, and do everyday stuff and partyharty like it was 1562

So.... now i need to chase up vac work and cancel shipping

i bid you adeu ;)

The Week Ahead

i am sitting here, stressing and stressing about my project because its not running the way i planned and i have strict timelines :(

so ill let it out here

Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress

*sigh*

monday i go back to melbourne for pre-departure training, you know so i don't screw up 1000's of years of culture and politics. this week end i have to start preparing the equipment to go, hmm seems easy but we'll see later and then when i get back it will be the same thing, unfortunately i have run into a little dilema, i didn't realise that the shipping yards went on holidays over the christmas period so, i have the choice to ship on the 17th of december or the 8th of january.

anyone who has any info i need to make this descision has up and left for what i assume would be christmas holidays which leaves me in a state of limbo.

but i push on, doing all i can do in preparation.

i feel that everyone is going to be angry at me though, and it is really bizzare being under sooooo much pressure to achieve

its like im on the edge of a breakdown, anythings that doesn't work for me lately has just given me the shits, and i just refuse to participate.


moving on.....

im finding i have less and less time for things on the internet now. this was my last refuge after i was so quickly removed from my life in normal day time society, but i have found something. somebody in an engineering firm is willing to take me on to do Vac Work but because of normal work and my project and the bureaucracy of uni i am struggling to find the time to work out the fine details. also now that i have to go for the majority of the week i will be unable to persue this for a while, and i hope this doesn't leave them a bit pissed.

but at least i have one thing, more sane than i at the moment which is shweta, who i have been talking to over the last couple of days and she did something that made me smile, :) she wrote about me in her blog so im going to give you a link and maybe you'll like her too

post
http://munchkinhugs.blogspot.com/2008/12/hitlerishness.html
blog
http://munchkinhugs.blogspot.com/

the topic being that hitler was an emo clown (mind you it has absolutly nothing to with hitler or emos)

*crack of thunder*

and it rains, well i guess we'll just have to check the equipment in the wet tomorrow


so thats my current situation and my 2 cents

back off to plan,


ciao

xoxoxox (to all who want it otherwise there's a handshake waiting for you)

apparently everyone is doing this

1. What's your name?siralmo

2. What is your favorite thing to wear?undies – they make me feel secure

3. Last thing you ate?chocolate mousse

4. One place you will NEVER eat at?the fish and chips shop down the road

5. I say Shotgun, you say:duck

6. Last person you hugged?Irene

7. Does anyone you know wanna date you?probably not

8. Would you date anyone you met online?hmm dunno

9. Name something you like physically about yourself:my flabbies as irene so kindly put it

10. The last place you went out to dinner to?the Broncos leagues club

11. Who is your best friend?best friend?.

12. What time of the day is it?12:23am

13. Who/What made you angry today?the shipping times over christmas

14. Baseball or Football?futebol or AFL

15. Ever gone skinny dipping?that seems personal, have you? Maybe ;)

16. Favorite type of Food?anything but the foods that I don’t like

17. Favorite holiday:one that I’m not responsible for anything

18. Do you download music:when I need to, there should be exceptions for students

19. Do you care if your socks are dirty?depends on how dirty, I might wear them a couple of time depending on how they feel

20. Opinion of Chinese symbol tattoos?well if you don’t know mandarin or Cantonese chances are not going to know exactly whats being written on you

21. Would you date the person that posted this?it depends, on whether he will be available soon but I don’t know if he would be into that… just jokes

22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?no

23. Do you love anyone?
love is such a strong word, so not at the moment

24. Are colored contact lenses sexy?the contacts aren’t important, it’s the person underneath that counts

25. Have you ever bungee jumped?no

26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting?no

27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?yes

28. How many pets do you have?2 - Zorro and our fish

29. Have you met a real redneck?yes – nothing wrong with them really

30. How is the weather right now?Hot Humid

31. What are you listening to right now?Nothing

32. What is your current favorite song?Listening to bloc partys new album, its alright

33. What was the last movie you watched? cant remember

34. Do you wear contacts? no

35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?broncos leagues club

36. What are you afraid of?getting hurt

37. How many piercings have you had?none

38. What piercings do you want?none

39. What's one thing you've learned this year?people are actually here to help me

40. What do you usually order from Starbucks?Nothing

41. What Magazines are you reading?none

42. Have you ever fired a gun:no

43. Are you missing someone?hahaha yeh, I don’t know where I lost them

44. Favourite TV show?heros or scrubs

45. Do you have an obession with WoW?NO

46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb?hahaha all the time except no one can ever seem to remember who, obviously that person is not famous enough

47. What celeb do you look like?refer to last answer

48. Who would you like to see right now?you

49. Favorite movie of all time?none though I saw my fair lady for the first time the other day and it was the funniest thing I had ever seen

50. Do you find yourself loved?hahahaha not for a long time

51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't suppose to?offcourse, but its getting out of it that makes it all worth while

52. Favorite smell?food or flowers

53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?popcorn I think salt is enough

54. What's something that really bugs you?
At the moment I can’t think of anything

55. Do you like Michael Jackson?personally, I don’t know him, so…

56. Taco Bell or Burger King?hungry jacks ;)

57. What's your favorite perfume?umm I only wear these things for people special to me

58. Favorite baseball team?NO

59. Ever call a 1-900 phone number?NO

60. What's the longest time you've gone without sleep?Three days – man you have great sleep after that one

61. Last time you went bowling?the other week

62. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
On the floor

63. Who was your last phone call?lady from shipping company

64. Last time you were at work?2 weeks ago

65. What's the closest orange object to you?an led in my room

The Rain

So I pick up the guy that was helping me take inventory , and we drove out there and started to pull the equipment out of one container and started counting. That was when the clouds rolled in so we decide to pull the equipment in, then all of a sudden this huge gust of rain blows passed. There was nothing to do but get all the equipment in the container as quick as possible then I realised the window to my car was open

>.<>.<>.<>.< once again

So we waited in the rain and the cold for an hour while this guy came. When he came he tried to pick the lock, which he wasn’t able to do, so he pulled out the back seat and went in that way, in the mean time I was being bitten by ants.

So we went home once the back seat was in and we drove home we realised the damage of what was later described as one of brisbanes worst ever storms. When I arrived home I went to bed for some much needed sleep. But I woke at 12:00am by my mum yelling my name and telling me to come down stairs, when I got down there, the pool had filled and flooded the downstairs of the house so we had to try and empty the pool which involved running the pumpwhich happened to be out in the open.

So there I was out in the open in the middle of the night in my undies getting rained on trying to run this pump…..

Party

So after the exam I planed to go out but for some reason ended up on laptop writing emails for my project in the mean time I convinced a friend to come out. My friend turned up a short while latter and by that time I had found a game called fantastic contraption http://fantasticcontraption.com/ and was then officially procrastinating. From what I hear you ask?? I had just finished exams.

Well the simple answer would be the party I had organised, but what I hadn’t thought about was that I was carrying my laptop around, so first I had to ditch the laptop. I took my mate to home and ditched the laptop but while we were there he noticed the pool, so we had to take a swim. Unfortunately I forgot about the scab on my back where the stitches had been taken out. It got all soggy so I had to find someone to help me clean it up afterwards. Anyway we got out and got ready to leave.

We reached the city and met up with our other friend, who was not impressed that we had left her waiting, and went to a bar. We began to talk it up and drink it up, at which point my friend decided declared he would find sake at any cost, so when we were finished we went in search of sake. And ended up at a bowling alley where we found another friend so we kept drinking and then went bowling. After we were done we ended up at an irish pub and in the wee hours of the morning we went home

Ahhhh home sweet home :D

So I woke up at 2pm, that didn’t matter to me I had finished exams but I had to be at work soon so I had to get going…

(in this period I went to work)

After work I met the guys from the night before at a club but I had driven in so I couldn’t drink so I danced the night away. I drove everyone to my friends place and went to sleep there. I woke up at 11am cause apparently I was taking bowling girl home for a soccer game after 1pm. I wasn’t even thinking I just kept talking till about 15 mins to 1pm and then she said are we going ? so we left. I went home for some extra sleep and then once again I went to work

After work I went out again cause you know the party isn’t over yet

So we danced and drank like there was no tomorrow my mate had to leave early so it was just me and the girls so we just kept going…….

Morning light came and we were “asked” to leave, so we went and got breakfast at pancake manor :D and then at 9:30am it was time to go home so I went home and realised I had things to do so I organised all my internet stuff tried organising shipping for my project, and then went out to the containers to take inventory at 2 pm, Man was that a stupid Idea….

After Exams

So it all began with the second in a series of exams for my degree. Now I have been asked by many people what degree I’m doing. I am doing a degree in mechanical engineering. Now this doesn’t mean I am super smart, but it does mean that I will disappear quite often for what would seem like no reason at all and then just appear out of nowhere. Now this exam was for Dynamics of Machinery which dealt with all the maths behind moving parts, more specifically links. You know like that little arm the pushes the train wheel round and round and round.

I went into that exam and absolutely smashed it with minimal preparation. For some reason that seems to be the way it happens. I will do nothing and assume I know everything until the last minute where I will frantically wiz around like I’ve been popping pills since last Tuesday. Anyway the exam was done so the only thing left to do was to study for the next exam and that is what I did, I got out of my exam at 4:30 pm and had until 8:30 am to prepare for the next exam and unfortunately these things, we have to do sometimes.

So comes the next morning …

I arrive at 6 sharp ready to study cramming like there was not tomorrow, and my god was I out of it… there was nothing I could do, except for study, so that I did. The exam was for Industrial Engineering and covered things like how to maximise production without sacrificing aspects of production, In other words optimisation.

So I had my little study sesh and then it was time…

I walked in there and answered every question :D

But again I had to study, so off I went to the computer lab to study once more… >.< . When I finish my study for the night I catch the train home, so I walked to the train station. I had missed the train and had to wait half an hour to catch the next train so I sat there with a giant book reading. Every who walked by took a squiz, it felt awkward but eventually my train came, so I got on train and off I went.

The next stop, a guy who was pissed as fuck, hops on and then sits right next to me. So I think alright if I leave him alone ill be right, but the guy starts to talk to himself…. Very loudly and then started to talk to me telling me how books don’t get you anywhere, he told me to get a trade and to get some real work and stop wasting my time reading books :S

So I spent the next 15mins telling about engineering and he came up with everything imaginable until he said except bosses don’t like it when you tell them how to do things, to which I replied “but we are the people who tell the boss how to do everything” and he just shut up. That was it I got off the train, drove home and went to sleep.

Once again I wake up 4:30am ready to catch the train into the station with this giant book cause it was an open book exam. I find my self once again trawling through this book so that I know where info is and can get to it easily, and once again, the time comes to go off to my exam. This exam though was my last and I couldn’t wait to get out, So I wrote and wrote and wrote and I got to the last question and “pens down”…

I'm Back

so... i have been writing a post to cover everything that has happened since my last post and it has come out a bit long so as i will be away over the next few days in melbourne for EWB National Conference, im going stagger the posts so that its not so huge..

the first will be at 8:00 pm tonight AEST +1 (brisbane time)

enjoy :)

Chicks Dig Scars, But Then Again Crack Hair Doesn't Help

I had my stitches taken out today :D

so i thought i would provide some visuals to keep every one up to date

this one is before i got them out


these ones is after i got them out



and this is my exam time look.... notice the concerned serious face the fuzzy hair and the beard, that only comes from the repetition of waking up then studying and then falling asleep once again for a month.



however once exams are over, i can shave everything but the mo, get a hair cut and then i will look right for movember, how awesome is that mo going to look :D

talking about exams i have my last three exams tuesday, wednesday and thursday at 8:30am AEST so on thursday, at 11:30 when i finish my exam, there will e nothing left to do except go to the bar because everyone else is at work and i dont want to just go home and do nothing.

THIS SEMESTER WAS EPIC AND I NEVER WANT TO DO IT AGAIN, i think finishing is cause enough for celebration :D

I Am A Libran

I recieved an email this morning about star signs and how accurate their descriptions are, (it was one of those chain mail ones :P) this is what i got:

"LIBRA

The Harmonizer (Sept 23 - Oct 22)

Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their minds. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible."

So i thought to my self "ohh c'mon thats too broad". So.... now (yes right now) i am going to find out more.

First place, Wikipedia..

"Associated traits

The following traits are widely associated with this sign.

Diplomatic / compromising however possibly manipulative
Cooperative
Fair / balanced / impartial
Idealistic (in relationships)
Charming
Easy-going / sociable
Indecisive / changeable
Peace loving
Gullible / influenceable
Elegant / graceful
Refined / artistic / good taste
Pleasure oriented
Gentle
Sensitive to others
Analytical
Kind
Cheerful
Romantic
Self-indulgent
Flirty / frivolous however loyal in marriage


Attributes

Likes - Fairness • Equality • Harmony • Beauty • Justice

Dislikes - Cruelty • Offensive Behavior • Conflict and Discord • Vulgarity and Coarseness • Injustice

Ideal careers - Artist • Entertainment • Design, especially fashion • Interior decorator • Lawyer • Administration


Physical traits

Many astrologers believe that each of the twelve signs has identifiable physical traits. Some of them consider that physically, individuals born under the sign of Libra supposedly tend to have a graceful figure, a charming appearance, refined features, a high forehead, and a 'trademark' dimple. They are often very good looking individuals and use their good looks well."

As i read this i think... "this is a little better, more descriptive and actually almost on the dot" So the search continues.

Fom a site that says Traditional Traits of librans

"Diplomaitic and urbane
Romantic and charming
Easygoing and sociable
Idealistic and peaceable
Indecisive and changeable
Gullible and easily infuenced
Flirtatious and self-indulgent"

AHA!! this one i think fits Most of all....

"The Bright Side
The Libran personality is one which is easy-going, charming and pleasant and for whom relationships are all-important. This sign above all simply cannot do without other people and so makes an excellent host or hostess.

Devious
What Libra wants, Libra gets in the end and all kinds of devious ploys may be used in the meantime. But a reluctance to dirty their hands gives Librans a steak of laziness which may mean a delay in getting their many plans off the ground.

Harmonizer
The basic Libran urge is towards finding balance and harmony with other people and they will often do this at the risk of losing sight of their own needs. A Libran can get caught up in' people-pleasing' but makes the ideal diplomat always prepared to negotiate a settlement between warning factions or to propose a peace treaty to squabbling partners.

The Dark Side
The famous indecisiveness of Librans means that they either sit on the fence and wait or swing widely from one point-of-view to another. So it is not most reliable of signs and is often accused of being two-faces. It is perhaps less well known that Libra is also a very self-centered sign which always insists on its own way.

Peaceful
Libra is also a sign which values peace - often at all costs and which is very fair-minded so that other people like being around Librans as they will always seek a compromise if an argument is threatened. However, those dealing with Librans should remember that things are not always what they seem because Librans can be so minded, charm the birds our of the trees! "

BAHAAHAHAHAHA!!!!! maybe the star signs are correct???

and finally with one last note this piece.

"Libra is ruled by the Planet Venus. In ancient Roman mythology, Venus was a smooth seductress who was at her best amid pleasurable excess. Well, Librans are certainly carrying the torch for her today. The Scales are cultured, refined and love beautiful things. Most of all, they love beautiful people, which is why Librans do so well at cocktail parties or at the theater, opera or ballet. Those born under this Sign always have the right thing to say and know how to make others feel comfortable. Suave? You bet. Librans are so adept at charming conversation that they need to be mindful of overstepping their boundaries and appearing vain or gossipy (the Scales do love intrigue). When these folks are on their game, however, they are a pleasure to be with. Librans are artistic, stylish and enjoy creating a beautiful world. The converse of this is that bored Librans can become apathetic and lazy -- but they'll smile anyway.

The Element associated with Libra is Air, and that means reaching higher, specifically to the higher mind. Librans like to put their mind to good use, and enjoy communicating their thoughts to others. They like to use their smarts (and talk) to get to know others better -- yes, knowledge about people is where it's at for Librans. You can expect the Scales to make a fair argument, too, since they live by the principles of diplomacy and compromise. When this approach doesn't work, however, Librans are not above using their persuasive charms to get their way. Manipulative? Nah, Librans really are too nice for that. Plus, any end-runs that these folks use are usually to build themselves up, since the Scales can be easily deterred. Librans are polite and don't like to fight, far preferring to talk things through. Remember, these folks know how to communicate (they're Air) so they're bound to make their point. Librans don't get in a huff when faced with an opposing viewpoint. Rather, they take a deep breath and consider all the options in the spirit of cooperation. "

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References in order of appearance

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Libran
http://www.astrology-online.com/libra.htm
http://www.forplu.com/community/life&style/feature/horoscope/libra.htm
http://www.astrology.com/allaboutyou/sunsigns/libra2.html

one down three more to go...

so today i finished my first exam,

i think i aced it :D

i have my other three exams on tuesday, wednesday and thursday which will be interesting, maybe.

i can't remember the last time i had enough time to sit down and post something, let alone post it at like 8:30 but i dont think i want to bore you with my petty emotions after the onsaught of posts i writen lately.



the US elections are tomorrow...

woo hoo, finally its done for another four or so years.

i think its going to be interesting to see what happens now.



there were these two guys at the bus station today and there was a massive line for the bus because it was late, anyway i couldn't stand up and wait because of my stitches so i went to sit down, in the mean time the line got longer and longer, finally the bus came...

so i get up slowly and hoble over towards the bus and in this time one guy in the line decided he would call me up on it

"are you right" i thought he was asking if i was ok
"yeh mate, ill be fine just as long as im able to take a seat"
at this point another man decided to interject
"oi mate, don't cut, there are people who have been here longer than you"
"look mate, seriously, get to back of the line" the first man said
the second man looked at the conductor and said "hey this guy is cutting in"

the conductor looked at me and remembered me from when i sat down, looked at the guy and just said nothing.

anyway these two decided to take it i not their own hands and push in front of me even though i was walking at half the pace they were, so got into them.

"you fucking twats, where do you get off telling me to go to the back of the line would you tell an elderly person or a cripple to get to the back of the line... you fucking wankers"

these 2 kept walking and ignored me, and the bus was full so i couldnt get on

"yeh keep getting on the bus... dickheads, you'll get your fucking comeupance"

so i thinking the next bus isn't coming for another half hour take a seat again and as soon as i sit a new bus arrives. so i get up and go to the bus, i look inside and it is empty.


moral of the story, the dickheads got theirs cause they had to stand and i got a seat

also to make it sweater, the bus i was on overtook theirs, so double win

ciao xoxoxo

As I Promised...

So this has been a fun week filled many exciting adventures... (*coughs* bullshit *coughs*)

so first of all, a little while ago you might remember me tell you about my trilby hat well i have pics ^^

(this is me thinking i look like a fool, but i don't care cause i have a hat and you dont :P)

then i promised a few of you pics of the stitches, so here they are

the spot in question... (dum, dum, dum daaaaahhhhh!!! *dramatic music*)

i have my first exam on 8:30am tuesday AEST so im going to go now...

.

have fun, stay safe ;)

49 things i miss about being with someone

I miss…

• The touch of your hands
• The touch of your lips
• The touch (you get the idea)
• The smell
• The closeness
• The understanding
• The love
• The connection
• The enthusiasm
• The cuddles
• The kisses
• The conversations
• The silly moments
• The funny moments
• The not so funny moments
• The intimate moments
• The way I missed you when we were apart
• The way you talk
• The way you move
• The way you feel
• The way you care
• The way you listen
• The way you are
• The way you aren’t someone else
• The way you grounded me
• The way I get lost in your eyes
• The way I cant help but shower you with kisses cause you’re so beautiful
• The way your heartbeat matched mine when we lay together
• The way your breathing matched mine when we lay together
• The way you’d make me smile when ever your around
• The way you’d come to me when you needed help
• The way you’d comfort me when I was stressed
• The way you stood up for me
• The way you challenged me
• The ability to say nothing and just be
• Taking walks
• Holding hands
• Going places without a clue where we are going
• Seeing movies
• Forgiving you just because
• Your heart beat
• Eating out
• Eating in
• That I could see you so often and still want to see you some more
• When you called just to say I love you
• Having showers with you
• The things we planned
• The things we didn’t plan

i even miss

• The way I used to find your hair all over my jumper

Study

Study, Study, Study.

if only the rest of the year was like this...

:)



P.S.

i wont be saying this on the day of the exam, Bahahahaha!!!

Very quick post

Because i've finished assignmenting..

i still have exams and project to deal with to be content so no rest for me, must keep moving, though since my last couple of posts i have been thinking a lot about where i am at the moment and what i want... and i came up with a very strange list. Now at the same time i have a friend who got a boyfriend recently, which seems to be the latest of a trend of all my friends lately. i had a look at this list and i noticed that i was actually quite lonely.

all of the things that i was thinking about, talking about, reading about and writing about were about relationships. but the thing is i have no time with which to play and get to know people in because it always seem like im doing something or going somewhere, i have never really settled in one place for too long.

funnily enough i have allways done that with friends aswell i can only remember one point in my life where i had more than one friend, you know the kind of friend that you talk to all the time, see all the time do stuff with. now i dont really have have friends...

although come to think of it, i have 2 but that doesnt count, cause one i go to uni with and the other i went to school with and lives up the road (but hardly ever see cause too busy).

so anyway back to no friends... i have what i like to call acquaintances, cause i have met you once, twice or a whole bunch of times but nothing really happens with it for some reason there is like a force field or a wall between us, given the opportunity i would love to hang around with heaps of people but like i said it just doesnt happen.

in any case my need for closeness has deminished as i have learned to deal with all the crap emotions that come right out when you push the right buttons and that has made quite introverted once again, every thing i have to say just come out superficial

e.g.

what ya doin?
your dress looks nice
how's things?
oh yeh!! thats pretty awesome
cool...

and thats what the conversation consists of just a repeat of those and similar phrases, but i can't help it i try to engage people but when i do i always think im being a nuisance so i finish upwhat im saying and leave or change the topic.

whats worse is that because i have no time im spending more and more time interacting with total strangers on the net because i get at least some level of connection. compared to my normal life. i mean just a comparison when i had just broken up with my last girlfriend i had nothing on the net at all. because all my attention was on her and thats as simple as it got. i didnt care cause i had someone more important to me than anything else.

but when it was taken away it left me very open, i used to be one to wear my heart on my sleeve,and when you spend every spare second with some one and then its gone there is a huge void..

void fixers internet/alcohol, i joined qut motorsport i joined engineers without borders i joined a million things just to fill the void... and fill the void it did. but having done all of that i found that i had spread my self to thin and didnt want to let everybody down so i overworked myself almost to the point of no return but at least it distracted me from the reality of what i was actually feeling. becaus little did i realise that the void was eating away at me especially since i pretty much spent all my other time drinking. At one point i remember drinking everyday for a month or 2 and that was just time gone like that i did nothing i contributed nothing i acheived nothing i studied i worked and i drank...

now its not an addiction cause i dont need it infact i have not had a drink now for that past 2 months. and im fine but my point is its not like its going to stop me from drinking later.

so now i am aware of my void (just to pull this post back on track) and i will post my list later when i get the time and then ou can judge for yourself. i just fear for all my wants and needs that i am never going to find someone willing to be with me. im sure if people actually got to know me they would know that im as easy goin as they come and for some reason i seem to bend over backwards to other peoples needs. maybe im too eagar to please. not that its a conscious thing.

i just have no one to bounce things off i guess.. that would probably explain the introvertedness, i've had a thought... that if i dont have anyone to talk to then i turn to myself and if i turn to myself i tend not to consider what others think. cause im the only that "matters". because nobody else cares.

as selfish as that sounds that how i see it.

i will continue this later

one last thing...

the person who said it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all was pulling out of their arse.

1. ignorance is bliss
2. the only thing better than ignorance is love itself

which leaves love lost at the bottom of the list, the shittest place to be

ahhh!!! im being consumed by the antilove

night ;)

CTU #2

well i have 4 assignments down and 1 to go due on friday....

this last one is on lubrication of a gear box i designed.

after that i have an exam on the 4th and then exams on the 11th, 12th and 13th.

obviously anyone who has been reading my posts will know that my project had won it grant and now many things have to be done to complete it.

i had a spot on my back checked today, turns out i have to get it cut out, just incase. :( it just means stiches :( x2. which means no streching my back which in turn means no gym, no parkour and no streching..... whyyyyyyyyy!!! not the stretching....

anywho i got an opportunity to work for a company called BCA so that would be good if i could get that.

i almost got to do back saults on the floor, soon i will do them outside and then there wil be no stopping me, ill be doing back saults left right and center. next thing gainers..... ;)

dont know what a gainer is watch this

i think thats is all for now, sorry that my posts are becoming sparse, uni is taking control of my life :(

An Explination

this is in realtion to my last post, and i heard a song just then by colin hay that was almost exactly spot on with what i was talking about, so here are the lyrics that i have edited slightly. i would suggest reading it normally and not like lyrics.

I drink good coffee every morning
Comes from a place that's far away
And when I'm done I feel like talking
Without you here there is less to say

I don't want you thinking I'm unhappy
What is closer to the truth
That if I lived till I was 102
I just don't think I'll ever get over It

I'm no longer moved to drink strong whisky
'Cause I shook the hand of time and I knew
That if I lived till I could no longer climb my stairs
I just don't think I'll ever get over It

Your face it dances and it haunts me
Your laughter's still ringing in my ears
I still find pieces of your presence here
Even after all these years

But I don't want you thinking I don't get asked to dinner
'Cause I'm here to say that I sometimes do
Even though I may soon feel the touch of love
I just don't think I'll ever get over It
If I lived till I was 102
I just don't think I'll ever get over It

very mediocre post

To Munchkinhugs

i know you probably wont get this on the day but just incase you do...


i want to wish you a very happy birthday and all best of fun, even though its uni time and very close to exams. i hope you love the shoes which seemed quite epic to find. if i could i would get you a present but its not so easy to do, being up here and all that jazz. i would give you the rubiks cube the swiss ball or heros season 1,2 and 3 if you were coming to conference, but you said you dont like presents. so i dont know if you want them, ill send them back with someone.

So have a good day / hope you had a good day (just incase you dont get it on the day)

Hugs and Kisses, because you will always be my indian, and i your horse mat

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P.S for some reason i always remember you as my indian, running around like idiots

ohh and just incase you didnt know my kisses are like the cheek kiss thing kisses's

Don't you just wish??

alright here is another one of those things that sort of relates, the only difference is that this is i song i heard recently, that i remember so well, because i used to sing it to my last girlfriend. look how well that worked out...


jack johnsons Better together

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart,
our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs
with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer
at least for most of the questions in my heart, like
Why are we here?
And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together

Mmmm, It's always better when we're together
Yeah we'll look at the stars and we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments
just might find their way into my dreams tonight,
But I know that they’ll be gone
when the morning light sings
and brings new things
for tomorrow night you see
that they’ll be gone too,too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way
into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression
i was somewhere in between
With only two,
Just me and you,
Not so many things we got to do
or places we got to be
We'll sit beneath the mango tree, now,

Yeah It's always better when we're together
Mmmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

mmmmmmm

I believe in memories
they look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when I wake up,
you look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
There is no, no song I could sing
and there is no combination of words I could say
but I will still tell you one thing
We're Better together

ok so you'll probably notice my song choices have been very heartbreak themed, let me tell you why..

it all started with my last girlfriend,we were the best of friends before we got together. it was something that just happened, it just came all together one day. you know spur of the moment thing. we spent no more than 4 days apart during this relationship. and it was awesome for like the first two years, but after that i think we had just been a couple too long cause everything was routine and we were having fights at all of that jazz that usuall people have. The most of all why can't you move in? and i thought why should i? i lived down the street from her. so i would be with her only i would be spending shitloads more to do it. i would be exactly the same distance from work and uni so i saw no benefit. anyway so it got to exam time and she says "oh mark is going to take me for a ride on his bike" (mark is/was her 47 year old flat mate)
i thought fine, you know i have to study for exams and all that. so skip forward a couple of days to the day before the exam which starts at 8:30 the next morning. this is the last chance to cram before the exam. she comes to my house crying just before i was about to leave and tells me that they had sex that morning and that she was really sorry

WTF???

why the hell would she come and tell me??? anyway so i sucked it up and said whatever i need to study and off i went, suprisingly it was a fairly productive day. but exam day i was a complete wreck i have no idea why i thought it was a good idea to go to the exam. i failed that subject miserably. anyway apparently we were still together and stuff and apparently thats what she really wanted, so i thought, ok she made a mistake, why not? big mistake number one.

i was going to portugal in week not to mention that it was our third aniversery in four days so we kept doing what we normally do, and it gets to that day i leave.. all hugs and kisses but just the thought of him and her had become etched into my mind, so for the month i was there i cried myself to sleep everyday i was there but she said she wanted it to work and i thought why shouldn't i believe her? big mistake number two

so while i was traveling across the country, i was collecting things to give her to tell her about all these places. anyway its the day i get back and i could not contain myself, i drove over there straight away with all my presents. when i got there she answered the door and said in these exact words

"ohhh!! what are you doing here?"

my heart sank...

but i thought we arrived early so she might not have expected me so early big mistake number three. she came out and had a look at all my stuff. you know hugs and kisses all around and them tells me they have been sleeping together while i was away....

i cant remember what happened after that, i had arrived one week into the semester so it was straight back to work. all i can remeber is further crying myself to sleep for the next months.

anyway, pretty much around the time i stopped feeling absolute shit she calls me and says i want to see you, cause she wants to be friends and blah blah blah...

and i believed her, my biggest mistake yet

but it kept going like that for months all through which she would say stuff like what if we got back together?

one day i just got rid of all her photos, clothes, messeges, contacts everything that i could find that belonged to her.

and thats it i saw a glimse of her once in the city since.


After all that i was emotionally screwed up.

unfortunately now everytime i meet someone i even remotely like, i shutdown and hide or make the biggest ass out of myself. and i have no friends that are girls, that i talk to all the time anymore and im becoming less and less able to hold a conversation with girls that dont know me.

ohh and for all those that know me as a big drinker, i was actually as dry as a bone before about the time that i got rid of all her stuff

so the lyrics i put in this post are actually a more love than heartbreak because i think im get my romantic back ;). as much as telling that story hurts (i'm tearing at the moment)

i have made a list, its sort of a love wish list. A combination of what i loved about being with someone and what i would like so ill put that up soon.

thank you for reading if you made it this far down
have a good night, sleep well, sweet dreams to all
hugs and kisses to all the girls and a manly hand shake for all the guys

Bahahahaha!!!

Fuck Yeh!!!!!

todays post was supposed to be about poverty in support of blog action day but instead i am going to tell you that i succesfully raised $30k to help the empoverished people of PNG, speciffically in their health system...

i am currently running an engineers without borders project that aims to do this. link in the sidebar-------(thataway)------>>>

this allows us to build ties with the community in order to develop a partnership where by we can give them what they need/want (rather than dumping useless or over technical things on them), teach them how to use and maintain what we give them so they are less reliant on us and more reliant on their own community

remember poverty is something we can help... whether it be just a simple blog today, or following a cause like mine do your bit and the world will be a better place for it.

something i heard once (dont know where it is from)

"you may feel like a drop in the ocean, but the ocean would be less if it weren't for that one drop"

good night people

Bloggers, Read This!!!

all bloggers i found something in my internet travelsand think you should help us out for a good cause.....

the first thing i want to show you is http://blogactionday.org/

"
On October 15th bloggers everywhere will publish posts that discuss poverty in some way. By all posting on the same day we aim to change the conversation that day, to raise awareness, start a global discussion and add momentum to an important cause.

Every blogger has a unique voice, audience and perspective. By speaking to their readers on topic about an important issue we can discuss global issues like poverty in a new and hugely multi-faceted way. And from discussion springs action.
"

the second http://unite.blogcatalog.com/participate/

"Why Should You Participate?
The bloggers of bloggers unite have created what is the only global blog initiative designed to harness expression in support of human rights and issues in need of highlight. Refugees United is the only online, highly secure and anonymous possibility of refugees to reconnect with family. "

the same thing except on the 10th of november talking about refugees

ive done my bit for now by placing to little image links in the sidebar and will be discussing these issues on the day


So..... Do your bit, join in and help make an impact on the world in a different way

add the links, tell everyone and most of all post on the day, and let everyone know to have the biggest impact. the more people that join in the more people we will reach :D

scheduled post success

T'was a success,

so i decided to make this post an hour after the previous just for my entertainment

:D

scheduled posts

i have found that you maybe able to post stuff and then give a date to be published

im testing it to try and work out what actualy happens

hopefully by the time you get this it will actually be in a couple of days after i wrote it


...... so here it goes

Hey there....

i havent done this for a while but these lyrics struck a cord with me i thought i might share

I know what I said
Was heat of the moment
But theres a little truth in between the words we've spoken
Its a little late now to fix the heart thats broken
Please don't ask me where I'm going
Cause I don't know
No I don't know anymore

It used to feel like heaven
Used to feel like may
I used to hear those violins playing heart strings like a symphony
Now they've gone away
Nobody wants to face the truth
But you wont believe what love can do
Till it happens to you
Till it happens to you

Went to the old flat
Guess I was trying to turn the clock back
How come that nothing feels the same now when I'm with you
We used to stay up all night in the kitchen
When our love was new
Oooh love I'm a fool to believe in you
Cause I don't know
No I don't knowAnymore

It used to feel like heaven
It used to feel like may
I used to hear those violins playing heart strings like a symphony
Now they've gone away
Nobody wants to know the truth
Until their hearts broken
Don't you dare tell them
What you think to doTill they get over
You can only learn these things
From experience
When you get older
I just wish that someone would have told me
Till it happens to you
Till it happens to you
Till it happens to you

night peoples

Pecking order

i was going through my usuall routine this morning of cheecking all my online stuff and read a post of someone i follow, (its ok people i stay 20ft away at all times).

So a little while ago i decided to see what would happen if i stalked (followed) as sir almo and not anonymously.

anyway..... im reading through this post and left my comments only to realise a section down the bottom that had my little head in it and thought "what is this????"
.
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Minions/Followers/Loyal Subjects

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so apparently im no longer the king of my domain. kicked off my high horse to be replaced droped in rank to minion.......

minion???

thats like being that guy that the horses step on so they dont get their hooves muddy when walking outside,
.

Shame...

Shame on you!!!

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no..... not really, i had the biggest laugh when i saw that... thank you (you know who you are) for brightening up my day :P

Being poetic??

i dont know if im being poetic but it rhymes and i wrote......... "something"........ that i think makes sense, at least to me anyway, so head to RSF and check it out

link in the side bar >>>-----(thatish way)----->>>

P.S

Bahahahaha!!!!!
i always wanted to say that by i dont make the videos, So this is the next best thing

Mmmmmmm!!!!!

Eating Cake

:)

Aren't I So Caring

FREE HUGS!!!!!

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( only for anyone who wants one )

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P.S

( if you don't want you dont have to have :P )

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P.P.S

i has a new hat :D, will show you later

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Bye....

My Last Resort

i have found that recently i spend way too much to doing nothing on the net when im actually meant to be doing things. i do actually end up doing them...... only at the eleventh hour (and then beyond). its a shame cause i know im good at this stuff its just that procrastination is so much more attractive and entertaining.

So....

~~~~My solution~~~~

after much deliberation with my skilled team, i came up with a solution only a great mind could come up with. a plan of such brilliance, style, class with a subtle hint of cockyness.

i created a study blog...

i "Plan" to use this blog to make sure that i regularly do all the things i need to. i havent got anything there at the moment (partial because i am writing this) but i am working on it. so have a read when there is stuff there you may learn something

(warning: subjects discussed in blog may contain high levels of maths, if you experience discomfort during the reading of this blog cease immediately, if discomfort persists, see you local mathematition)

I'm Yours, my Piano and Hats

so at the moment im learning the song im yours by jason mraz, well not so much learning as i am polishing it up a bit, but i cant sing that high and it is really annoying me that my voice cracks. i have this theory that the more i sing the song the more i will be able to sing those higher notes but in the mean time i may be annoying a few people :S, but thats ok cause i've never ever really followed what anyone said.

im also fixing my piano, i need to find some string, tough string like shoe lace string but thinner, then it will be complete, my masterpiece. a complete working piano that i can play and play and play some more. then i get to keep it :D

who's a happy chappy??

i believe that would be me

anyway on to the next thing. I used to wear this old trilby hat and below is a picture of some trilby hats just in case you didnt know what they were (dont worry, i didnt know either, i had to look it up).


anyway i used to have this old trilby hat that i wore everywhere or at least almost everywhere (as well as the drivers cap you may have seen in a previous post). it was awesome and unique and i loved it, But then all of a sudden it became fashionable to wear and all the stores stocked them...

:(

so much for uniqueness, i saw people wearing them everywhere i went.

T'was disgusting, Fashion, I spit on your grave .

so i stopped wearing it..... except for one day where i decided to take it out and just my luck it rained and i accidentally smooshed the hat so now i have a deformed hat :( . so now im am going to look for a new one.

the only thing is that i dont like the styles they use on these new fashionable hats

ahh well the search continues...

How Far Have I Come?

i dont know what i want to do

im almost 3/4 through my degree, im in control of a great philanthropic project.

But now i am not so sure what i want

What do i want to do??

i think it might be my fault that i feel overwhelmed by everything but i dont know how to get out of all of this. i have a tendency to over commit my self, i just dont know how to say no. it's such a silly thing to do. the problem now is that i want to escape but i dont want to let anyone down.

its unfair!!!!

i wish i could just stop time and take a break

but intsead it just seems like everything is speeding up and running away from me

ahh well

might as well go through with it now, the worst i could do is lose everything.

But atleast i tried

:)

ASSSSIGNMENTS (boring)

if anyone has had the chance of solving a four bar linkage by hand, you will know how fun it is. this is my holidays BTW. :( not happy jan...

my calculator, i have been told is a hit with the ladies, maybe i should start taking it out with me. i can show them all the functions, and everyone will be as excited about solving matricies and plotting graphs the posibilities are endless.

Its too bad i cant take matlab with me, then i would pull a crowd.....

hmmm yes!!!!

anyway, back to assignmenting

Why always in 3's

everytime I go to have a look at my emails there are always 3 emails, doesn't matter how long i haven't checked it for (with in reason), there are always three.

????

This Is Scary

i came across this video today

the side bar says:

"A new report raises questions about a little known, yet problem-ridden process known as voter purging that could cost some Americans their right to vote."

now concidering the fact the that it is not compulsory to vote, this is very scary.

its a bit like taking a random sample of people and regarding that as a true representation of what the pulic wants, but then to go find out the some of the states are purging voters from their systems, one must think, if this country is supposed to one of the major powers in the world, why would they endorse a system that could

1. be easily be manipulated and taken advanage of
2. represent the people inadequately

it is scary, go watch the video see for your self Click Here

RSF

new RSF story up, i think its good tell me what you think

Click here to see otherwise the link is in the "Things That Keep Me Entertained Online" section

My Fair Lady

My Fair Lady is the funniest movie i have seen in a long time

Its Footy Finals Day

YAH!!!

I tip the cats to win cause they have played awesome this year.

But its anyones game, the hawks are just as good but i think the cats have last years premiership on their side and maybe a little more confident and feeling a little more experienced.

Think You Can Relate?

i read something today, i thought i really understood, not under the same circumstances but similar.

to read for yourself Click Here

Why i Dislike Html

refer to previous post

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Bahh!!! by the time i posted this it was working

Stupid html

**shakes fist in air cursing**

>:(

Found a New Pass time

http://www.blogthings.com/

i found this and find it hilarious, here are some of the answers i got

Your Aura is Orange

You're a bit of a loner, but you're never lonely. You know how to entertain yourself. Whether you're trying an extreme sport or a new weird food, you always live on the edge. The purpose of your life: testing limits - both physical and mental... and then telling people about it. Careers for you to try: Snowboarder, Circus Performer, Undercover Agent

Your Geek Profile:

Academic Geekiness: High Fashion Geekiness: Moderate Gamer Geekiness: Moderate General Geekiness: Moderate Movie Geekiness: Moderate Music Geekiness: Moderate Geekiness in Love: Low Internet Geekiness: Low SciFi Geekiness: None

Your Life Path Number is 7

Your purpose in life is to find truth and meaning You are very spiritual, and you are interested in the mysteries of life. You are quite analytical and a great thinker. You have many theories and insights. A life of solitude is perfect for you. You need time to think and do things your way. In love, you are quite charming. You attract many with your confidence and wit. While you enjoy being alone, sometimes you take it to an extreme. You can become too isolated, shutting out loved ones and friends. Express yourself a little bit more, and you'll be surprised where it takes you!

You Are 30% Feminine, 70% Masculine

You are in touch with your masculine side. You are not overly sensitive and not easily moved. Occasionally, though, something will get through and touch your heart!

You Are 40% Shy

You are slightly shy, but overall, your reactions to social situations are normal. You dread difficult social situations, but you still handle them with grace/alcohol. In fact, no one but your closest friends has any idea that you're actually shy. You do your best to break out of your shell. You are confident and friendly.

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills. Idealistic and dreamy, you tend toward the impractical. You have a knack for getting yourself in sticky situations. Brainy and intelligent, you are intellectual to the point of being incomprehensible. Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.

Holidays :D

Whaaaaaa!!!!!!!

AWESOME!!!

its holiday time again and you know what that means


More time to procrastinate

i know what your thinking, thats bad

But i would have done it anyway


So if anyone is doing something on the net shoot it too me so i can check it out

=]> (thats me smiling, notice the Soul patch or flavour saver, that means its me)

Me, My Lychee Tree, My Travels and My Dog

look at my lychee tree, its growing ive taken pictures of it over the last few days and if you look carefuly you will see it growing too.(HINT: look at the new leaves) BTW this plant is 6 years old

also in my last post where i featured some oddities from my travels around brisbane here are some more pics fom my travels

and more in my albums, This is today me playing with my dog

and finally, I SHAVED!!!!!!!! over the past few weeks while ive been sick i have niglected to groom myself completely so i decided to do it today and thats it, now is that start of something new, no more time for sickness

Now thats a Mug shot, yesterday after doing handstands (all the blood has gone to my head)

i decided to shave half my face to see what it would look like........ and there it is.

and ofcourse this is me now

Brisbane Oddities 1

In my long and arduous journey around the outskirts of the city the other day, i came across some strange things and took some photos for you to see. There are many strange things in brisbane (i just happened to have my camera on hand for these ones).


Half Hour 1





Half Hour 2





Half Hour 3
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
WTF IS THAT??????



ohhh wait its just me, and my beard of sickness (when i cant be bothered shaving)

Bahahahhahahaha!!!!

Who's behind at Uni?

I find it interesting that everyone i talk to seems to think that they are behind on their uni work.

So if everyone thinks they are behind, is it possible that we are not really behind and that we are moving along at the usual pace.

So what is everybody worried about?

they are worried that they haven't done enough study, the funny thing is that you can never study enough. I Think its all about understanding, some people seem to understand things better than others, and then it becomes much easier for them to do well.

But what about assignments?

assignments just need time and effort, and because they only have and end deadline you can never really be behind, you can only have completed it or not completed it.

So who's really behind at Uni???

My movie wish list

these are the movies, coming soon, that i want to see

• Eagle Eye
• The Tale of Desperaux
• My Best Friends Girl
• 007 Quantum of Solcace
• Body of Lies
• Ice Age 3
• Bolt
• Beverly Hills Chihuahua
• Igor
• Madagascar: Escape 2 Africa
• Twilight
• Deathrace
• How to Lose Friends and Alienate People
• Underworld 3
• Nick and Norha's infinate playlist
• He's just not that into you
• Yes Man

and those i may see, if they look any better at the time they come out

• Babylon A.D.
• Young at Heart
• Max payne
• fast and furious 4
• Big stan
• Dutchess
• House Bunny
• Journey to the Centre of the Earth (brendan fraiser version)

and thats about it

But where have all the awesome war and action movies gone????

My RSF Blog

i have started a new blog http://randomstoryfix.blogspot.com/, for all my random ideas and i was thinking that it would be awesome if other people joined in and added their random stories and ideas aswell

it would be one super awesome collective of brilliance and masterpiece, from which all the emotions will be drawn from your deepest, inner most, cavities of your soul.

farewell and good night :P

HOT!!! HOT!!! HOT!!!

for the past few days its been bloody hot.

i dont understand how it can go from being so cold to being so hot, so quickly, its screwed up. especially since ive been sick, my temperature has been all over the place. i have slept most of today, and have only just found out i have a test tomorrow morning.

Dynamics of machinery

interesting stuff, if your able to not sleep the semester away. But unfortunately thats the way it has been so i guess once again im going to have to play catch up. you know the funny thing is that the understanding i have for all of these subjects is not very accurately represented by my scores for that reason. i guess ill just have to put up with it.

WHAAAA!!!!! Im Melting!!!!

MEEEELLLLLTIIIIING........


and now its dark and im a puddle of melted me, ahhh that reminds me chocolate festival is apon us and soon i will go to have my fair share of all the chocolate i can get. Mmmmmmm!!! so i will eat chocolate ice cream, chocolate cake, chocolate eclairs, chocolate fondoo stuffs etc.. etc.. etc....

but that is next week along with my one week of holidays (study) and it should be good but im a little behind on my project as i was moving the project along to a schedual that i made for our stakeholders and in my sickness i have let it fall behind :( so also need to play catch up with that.

~~~LIGHTNING~~~

theres a storm coming... i love it, we havent had storms or rain here for years its awesome, actually that would explain the darkness a moment ago. i always found lightning awesome and fun to watch whenever there was a storm i would go out to watch. once i was lucky enough to have strike the top of the hill near my house, i will never forget that one, so strong, so powerful. the main reason i remember that strike was cause it was in the week the it rained all week and as a result it flooded here and turned the creek down the road to a river and flooded all the ovals.

It was crazy

it took 2 weeks for it to die down and then all the plant life around the creek was flattened by the flow

but that wouldn't happen now....

Its Too Hot!!! it would just fizzle and get evaporationised

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Hungry, will talk later :P

ahhh Midnight

So its midnight again and im back from work.

I've been fixing my piano recently so that i can play it. Hopefully. Im feeling a lot better after being on this medication, now not so feverish and more like the sniffles. i also took pictures of my lychee tree, its starting to really grow. my brother has friends over and they are doing that "ohh this is sooooooo exciting" thing so they are playing games and talking loudly next door >:( .

lots of banging sounds and loud "trying to be quite" laughing and snickering.

well thats it, i guess it was just an update after all that. (well now that ive actually read it, its more of an update/bitch (an updaitch))

P.S

word of the day has not worked for ages so im getting rid of it (at least i got 2 words out of it)

The Highlight of My Day

BAHAHAHAHA!!!

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

i was checking my emails this evening and received an email from facebook...

it said "Jason, your rankings have been changed"

i read down the list and i spot this

#51 merriest (gained 6 places)

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thats right folks i have gained 6 places to become the 51st most merriest person i know on facebook, now i dont have that many friends on facebook and this places me about average.

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And i thought i was a merry person

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Obviously i thought wrong